not coping

[outlander]

i think ill end up in hospital again soon @Snowie @tyme @rav3n for my mental health
i have to discuss the worsening hallucinations, thoughts etc. sometimes i feel its more then just bpd or ptsd.

[Snowie]

Sorry hon @outlander had to feed everyone.

Perhaps a stay in hospital might be good for you hon, with some things getting worse. Is this something you can discuss with your supports at all?

[outlander]

i wouldnt mind another hospital stay but it would need to be kept hidden. i dont have supports by those around me except judgment.
i dont have enough sick leave either to cover rent or bills for a few weeks so it would cause alot of stress right now @Snowie 

[rav3n]

i'm sorry to hear that certain symptoms have been worsening @outlander i can see that you're open to a stay but there's other factors in the way. it's a tricky spot to be in! are there any strategies/activities that's been helping you manage for the time-being?

i wish i could do more to help, but i can sit with you 💙

[outlander]

not really @rav3n ive had mild symptoms like this before and its been manageable but this is alot worse and i have no idea how to manage it.
i do have my psych this week though so its something i want to discuss with her. maybe its abit more then my current mh diagnosis

[Snowie]

I'm sorry I didn't respond last night @outlander 

It's hard when it feels like everything is against us. Just looking after our mental health can have so many issues. 

Sometimes it feels like what is best for us is so out of reach.

I hope today goes a little better. Sending lots of love 💗

[outlander]

its ok @Snowie

still in bed here. will probably be here all day since i dont have work till tonight

[Snowie]

Sometimes bed is the best place for us @outlander 

You might be up by now getting ready for work. I hope your shift goes ok.

[outlander]

not till later @Snowie i dont have to leave home until 930 tonight

[Snowie]

That certainly is the late shift @outlander 

Do you stay overnight there?