I've talked about my journey with my chronic Nightmares from PTSD AND CPTSD.
This morning I woke from another one tired and exhausted as usual but with a new connection about my traumas.
My Nightmares are pretty vivid and detailed, they tell a story in some instances, what I didn't realise is it had been snapshots of a larger stories each nightmare leading up to last night.
I keep getting stuck back at all the schools I went to in all these different times I went to sleep leading up to last.
I thought this was all about my insecurities about certain terms I missed at school due to illness and the trauma related to that being forced to repeat and a little bit maybe that too but further and further back was weird as this happened in teen years.
I'm finally forced back in my Nightmare at a school I don't want to be at told I have repeat all the years truama worse then illness included that's when I snap.
I wake up, my nightmares are bad but that was helpful, there more fear then I could have know, and I think there maybe action I can take and I might want to take as well.
I know this vague the details are just triggering and I want to write I don't recommend always listening to nightmares like this I have been actively trying to get rid of mine and still am because I am tired so please always take nightmares and dreams with many tablespoons of salt.
