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[creative_writer]

@Snowie cooking is a form of art. It’s not something I’ve mastered yet, maybe one day. I’m glad it helps you relax.

Honestly I feel like I need to learn to let go, I find myself wanting to control things I can’t control. I’m not entirely sure how to get that sense of control. It’s feels like it’s long gone

[Snowie]

Cooking for me is like gardening for others @creative_writer

I can't keep any plants alive but I can make lots of different foods/meals!!

 Letting go is hard. It's not something that comes easily to any of us. I think it is something that takes time to achieve. It's like getting control. That takes time too.

Trying to make it through until then is really hard too. 

[tyme]

Heya @Snowie @creative_writer ,

How are you?

[Snowie]

Hi @tyme 

I'm going ok, just a lot happening at the moment.

Am hoping I can deal with everything without crashing again.

[tyme]

Do you feel you are in a better space to handle everything @Snowie ?

Is there anything we can support you with? Or you do have people to support you?

[creative_writer]

@Snowie keeping pet plants alive can be hard work. It’s amazing you have the skill of cooking various meals. It is something that you learn with time.

Letting go is very hard especially when you’ve grown up wanting to control things.

@tyme I sort of forgot to take my sunglasses today to uni. Got a migraine attack on the way back, hence brain is now anxious. How are you?

[Snowie]

I feel like I am in a better place atm @tyme 

I am hoping that monthly ECT can help keep me stable. I am also back to seeing my psych fortnightly and my pdoc monthly too. My meds have been tweaked a bit also.

So I do have support around me. I do have things in place.

The thing I am most worried about is that besides my change in meds, I had all this in place last time too, and I still ended up in hospital. With that and becoming a carer for my mum, it does plant that small seed of doubt inside of me. 

I do feel like I get support on here. It is just a matter of me reaching out if I need too.

[tyme]

Maybe it's about taking it one step at a time and not thinking too far in advance? @Snowie 

Is there respite care for your mum which you can apply for?

It sounds like you have supports in place at the moment and you know the people you can reach out to.

Fingers crossed it goes okay for you all.

We are here for you, backing you up 🙂

[tyme]

Hey @creative_writer ,

I'm pretty okay. Sorry to hear you forgot your sunnies at home and it's frazzled your brain a little. I have to say, it was pretty sunny today... on the cooler side, but the sun was bright.

How are you finding uni in itself?

[Snowie]

I think you are right @tyme Just taking it one step at a time and trying not to think too far ahead.

In the process of trying to organise support for her. Unfortunately everything takes time. Still waiting for a specialist appointment. Last time I checked she was number 36 on the wait list and they get through two people a week 😏

I'm very lucky, I know I have the forum for support.