I can’t cope

[Captain24]

I’m so tired. So depleted. @rav3n Ive got zero energy. My body feels heavy and weak. 

I like plans, I like to know what’s happening and when. I don’t do spontaneity at all. It all messes with my anxiety. 

Im not coping with the unknown. It’s just adding more layers to what I’m trying hard to get through

[rav3n]

that makes a lot of sense @Captain24 when it comes to being around people i'm not so comfy with or don't know well, i need the details earlier too. i like to mentally prepare for it. fingers crossed your mum gets back to you soon so you have one less things on your plate.

would it be possible to take a nap now? or even lay in bed and maybe watch a show (or rewatch a comfort show)?

[Captain24]

I’ve just gotten into bed. I think I’ll sleep for a bit. @rav3n 

[rav3n]

sounds like a good idea @Captain24 hope you sleep well and feel recharged soon, take care 💗

[Jynx]

Hey @Captain24 you lurking about hun? Nap at all or no go? 

[Captain24]

Im lurking @Jynx 

I can’t sleep. I think I'm too tired to sleep. I’m over tired. I need a little extra help to nod off. But I’m trying to not do that. 

I don’t want to get up. To much temptation. I have to feed the dogs though. 

[tyme]

I know this sounds odd, but sometimes going out for a quick run, esp in the bitting cold, might be helpful??? @Captain24 Or a brisk walk? I hear it is hard, but it may be worth doing.

[Jynx]

@Captain24 love a good lurk 😋

I know that feeling all too well 😣 The only thing I've found to work is to let myself eventually pass out with some trash tv on in the background (okay not 'trash' just, some 90's show I've seen a million times like Buffy). Reason being that ordinarily I fall asleep to white noise, moving my thoughts into a lil fantasy world til I am in dream land. When I'm over-tired, I can't focus my thoughts so I end up lying there awake and overthinking. So the tv show 'takes over the thinking' for me, and since I already know how all the episodes end, it doesn't make me wanna stay up to watch it haha. But it's the difference between falling asleep, and just passing out, in my experience anyway. 

Doggos must feast, yes. You could give yourself permission to run straight back to bed tho!! Where the warm and cosy lives 💜

[Captain24]

Getting dressed isn’t an option and it’s dark so probably can’t see anyway. But I did walk around my backyard a few times. It’s really cold out there! But I did it until I started breathing heavy. I do feel more awake though. @tyme. it worked while I was out there though. 

[Captain24]

I actually don’t have a tv in my room @Jynx. I deliberately didn’t put one in. There’s no aerial connection. I probably should have put a port in when I built. I didn’t think of my white noise. That’s pretty stupid of me. I was waiting to hear from mum anyway to find out what is going on tomorrow. My anxiety is t coping with the not knowing.

I’ve had to get up. The dogs are fed and I’m trying to get something for myself to eat. At this stage it’ll be a pie and chips.