Morning Check-in

[Dreamy]

Hello my sweet @avant-garde, I'm here ❤️

[avant-garde]

@Dreamy 

My homelessness case manager found a better job and is leaving in a week...

It has stirred up feelings that I'm just a job to her, that she's leaving for better pay...

It sucks because she means a lot to me but I don't think even legally she's allowed to be friends with me, or even if she would

[Dreamy]

@avant-garde oh sweetheart, I hear you. I can definitely understand why it's stirred up feelings for you. 

There's alot of "grey area" so to speak when it comes to whether friendships/relationships are allowed to be maintained outside of a professional one when you've built a connection with someone. 

Sending you hugs beautiful ❤️.

[avant-garde]

@Dreamy - it's a slower pace here

I'm holding onto so much as the moment, since my last therapy session, stupid holidays, my last session was 8th December...

• The AI mess
• The memory that came from that, how my former church betrayed me
• The consequence of that and what my dad did as a direct result
• Christmas, which is probably the smallest issue of the lot
• The heat exhaustion and subsequent hospital visits 
• The house inspection
• The trip last week and everything that invaded my mind as a result
• My case manager leaving 

It feels like... well I think I described it pretty well...

a squishy ball trapped in a locked metal cage that's being kicked around by a giant against a mountain in a thunder storm

[Dreamy]

@avant-garde oh sweet, that's definitely alot to be holding onto. When is your next therapy session? I can also relate to this, I only just got to talk to my counsellor on the 9th after just over 3 weeks since our last session and there was so much that I just needed to get out cos it had all been building up. 

[avant-garde]

@Dreamy tomorrow thank goodness

It'll be 6 weeks, with one 40 minute seizure

[Dreamy]

@avant-garde I'm really glad that it's tomorrow. 

That's a long time and a long seizure aswell. I hope it all goes well tomorrow and that things feel lighter after you are able to get them out. 

Always here for you beautiful, lots of hugs coming your way ❤️

[avant-garde]

@Dreamy 

I have peer support as well tomorrow which will help too

[Dreamy]

@avant-garde that's great to hear. What have you been doing today sweetheart? 

[avant-garde]

@Dreamy 

Sleep, audio book, cat food delivery, coffee