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[Aqua88]

G'day. I was recently granted DSP for my CPTSD and the whole process was extremely stressful and pushed me beyond my limits of control or what felt like anyway,I am writing this for advice please ,I'm getting a lot of black outs and taking it out on my partner,I feel that I am so needy,I think I've pushed him further away, everything  I've put him through,how could he really love me anyway,I'm pretty bloody broken ,right at the moment.Will it ever get better ?Any advice please. Thanks for listening ,have a beautiful day.

[RiverSeal]

Hey @Aqua88, thanks for sharing your experiences with the community!

Sounds like you are going through a tough time with your MH and how it's impacting your partner. It takes courage to reach out to your peers here on the Forums, and you are brave for being vulnerable. 

I have not had a partner throughout my MH journey, but a couple of partners did leave me for my behaviours very early on, when I had psychotic episodes. I believe that the community will have some insights to share with you about similar situations.

Congratulations for being granted the DSP!! I was on the DSP for many years and it supported me while I returned to work which was amazing. 

Thanks again for sharing your experiences!

Take care

RiverSeal 

[Aqua88]

Thankyou @RiverSeal 

 You're welcome.

Apparently I'm not "supposed" to be in a relationship according to my councillor. So maybe she was right. It's been a rough year,that we've been together. And I now have a DVO out on myself!_ Very sadly

Mabey it's the relationship, contributing, along with everything else ,that's happened.

I hope things smooth out a bit now. 

Peace 

✨

[Ed1975]

@Aqua88 

How did you get onto DSP? I also have CPTSD and the extra income would really help paying for treatment. TIA

[Aqua88]

Hi, it's been a slog ,years and years of CBT and medicine of many varieties. And ongoing psychology councillor and , Diagnosed, reasonably treated and stable. Psychiatry review as well.

[Ed1975]

@Aqua88 so CBT hasn't been working? 

[Aqua88]

It was ,and has , untill I had to delve deep. into the past ,to be re diagnosed., also @Ed1975
It's ongoing a daily battle for me.

[Shaz51]

hello @Aqua88 

how are you going today ?

hello @Ed1975 , I am on DSP and they usually say no on your first try but if you push and get more on the second round , will be thinking of you 

@RiverSeal 

[RiverSeal]

Hey @Shaz51, how are you doing today? Been cold and rainy here in Melbourne which I love!! RiverSeal 

[Shaz51]

stay warm @RiverSeal 

it is cloudy here and 24 degrees here 

having a easy day today