I can’t cope

[Ru-bee]

You did, I'm really proud of you too @Captain24 

It's such a clear flaw in the system that there's not more financial supports for those who need ongoing mental health support. It's extremely generous of you to give that money to your brother, but it's concerning that you haven't been able to eat to because of that. Has your pay come through now?

[Captain24]

Thanks @Ru-bee 

If I didn’t have my job I’d never be able to afford any care. There needs to be something done. Even when I was with comm health, I rarely saw the Pdoc and they don’t even have a psych. All I had was my CM and she didn’t really listen properly. Just said that I had my best friend so I was fine. 

He needed the money that’s why I sent it. I don’t matter he was more important. He can register his car now and pay the electricity bill. 

My pay did come through and now I’m cooking a roast chicken with veggies so I can have dinner and food to take to work for the next few days. It would have been nice to be able to prep this earlier though. 

[tyme]

Hey @Captain24  🙂

How was your day? Sorry if you've already shared.

I've just finished a meeting not long ago.

[Ru-bee]

It definitely does need to change @Captain24 

Yeah I bet it would've been nicer to prepare earlier! How long does it take to prepare the roast chicken? I've never actually roasted a chicken myself but I did just buy a roast chook from Woolies earlier in the week and had it for a few meals which was very tasty. 

I'm having some salmon and veg for dinner tonight. It's nearly dinner time for me, I don't usually eat so late but it's just easier to eat after work sometimes

[Captain24]

This one took nearly 2 hours. It’s almost done. @Ru-bee At least it’s healthy and I’m having veggies. I need to also do the dishes when I’m done so it’ll be a late night. 

Salmon sounds good. 

[tyme]

Hey @Captain24 ,

I went to a cafe with 4 ex work colleagues. It was nice to catch up. But as I was talking, I could see and feel my brain go all over the world... so much so that I was talking about one thing, then jumped to the next and the next... ADHD at it's finest? It seems to be affecting me more and more now. One person even commented, "That was so random. You were talking about one thing and then jumped to the next."

Can you relate?

Then, I went to visit my nibblings' friend. She invited me and the kiddos over to I went with the kids. Too many hyper kids... over stimulation. But it was nice to catch up.

Sooooo, how's the cooking going?

[Ru-bee]

Oh wow, I bet it's going to be delicious when it's ready @Captain24 and yes it sounds like a healthy balanced meal with the veggies and I bet it'll be great having it ready for lunches too. Hopefully there aren't too many dishes! 

I'm about to finish up for the night but I'll be around Sunday to chat if you're about then. I hope work goes gently for you the next few days

[Captain24]

Hey @tyme 

I guess you read through. 

I’m glad the catch up was good. I don’t know is it worse or is it that you notice it now? 

I can totally relate. I can never hold a conversation I always jump to different things. I always go off on a tangent even with my psych. I have to concentrate really hard and use a squishy.  

OH imagine the noise!! All hyper and excited. I’m glad it was good though. 

Sounds like I’ve had a good day and now you’re here with us. 

Dinner was good. Now for the dishes! Lunch is packed for the next two days. 

[tyme]

So true @Captain24 .

It could be now that I notice it more because I'm with people more! Remember, for 15 years, I was isolated and didn't even see people, let alone talk to them lol. 

Maybe that's why text communication is easier for me - because I'm forced to slow down as I can't type at the speed of my brain!

Yes, I had a pretty good day... but I came home so buggered that I just SLEPT!!! I haven't had an afternoon nap in years!

Good on you for being able to eat the same thing for 2 days lol. 

Quick question.. but you don't have to answer. Why doesn't your bro ask your parents for money?

How are you feeling today anyway?

[Captain24]

I only have work conversations @tyme. Other than that it’s here. But I’ll still go off on a tangent. 

That was a lot of socialising today though. Especially when you’re not use to it. If a nap was needed then that’s ok. 

I’ve got another meal I have to cook tomorrow night so I can alternate. It’s hard but it beats cooking every night. A lot of us eat the same thing. 

I feel better for eating a proper meal with veggies. 

Because I have a good job and everyone expects me to have money to spare. Plus he probably doesn’t want them to know. 

I’ve still been out of sorts but I’ve had a nap this afternoon and did a lot of distraction. 

Plus I’ve kept a close eye on Pix as she hasn’t been well. She didn’t vomit but was really nauseous, slept a lot and drank a lot of water. 

How are you feeling now?