I can’t cope

[tyme]

I still haven't tried those. I actually forgot about them until my sister came home with the bag..

She bought these https://www.costco.com.au/Business-Delivery/Nuts-Snacks-Confectionery/Chips/Orion-Turtle-Chips-Sweet.... 

@Bow @Captain24 

[Jynx]

@Captain24 oh lush!! I call that a winning nap hehe

You can share the heaviness of the thoughts, if you think it would help to get em off your chest? 

Are you concerned about it not being recovery focused? We can workshop it together if you like. We want you to be able to express yourself hun! 

Oh I love the cold!! But I don't like being cold, so I getcha! How do you bring a sense of warmth back into your space? I have to find a wholesaler for candles cos that's how I cope - many tiny pet fires!

[Captain24]

I haven’t seen those ones. That’s a huge bag!!!  @tyme.  I’ve had the popcorn ones but my favourite at the chocolate ones. It should take a while to get through them! 

[Captain24]

This whole recovery focussed thing scares me. It keeps coming up and I feel like it’s because I’ve done something wrong. @Jynx. I’ve been trying to include safety planning stuff. But right now I’m struggling to see recovery so I guess it’s not acceptable. 

I hate the cold and I hate being cold. I despise it. It brings me down really badly. I’ve got the heater going and I’m in a thick man’s tracksuit with 2 dogs on my lap. 

[tyme]

Hey @Captain24 , I hear your concerns. We are in the process of updating a lot of our pages and creating new ones... including the suicide one, hence the new thread. 

It's not because of your posts.

What'd you get up to today?

[Captain24]

Ou scares me that I’m going to get into trouble all over again

Other than the markets and junk food shopping, I’ve had a nap and just been watching TV. I just watched a series on Netflix that was , ummm interesting I guess you could say. @tyme 

What about you? 

[Jynx]

Oh! Hun! @Captain24 sounds like you're feeling like this is a direct response to you?

I err... dunno how to tell ya this but we don't make big posts like that to respond to the actions of a single member!! Yikes, that would be so gross, like a public shaming. And like yeah we know that recovery posting has been a struggle for you, but you're not the only one!

This has been a building trend for a while, and so we wanted to create a resource to help folks get a better understanding of it all, as well as having something to refer back to when this theme inevitably pops up in the future.

Did you find it helpful? I am SO OPEN to feedback - this resource is for you guys, not for us!! 

Like for example, in the post I was sure to point out that it's NOT about pretending okay when we're not! 

It's not about hiding feelings AT ALL. 

[tyme]

I stayed home all day because my niece was sick. My sister went to church because she plays music, so I stayed and minded my niece @Captain24 

She had a bad night... she was up most of the night.

She got a squishmallow from maccas the other night. She was so disappointment. I was coming online to tell you what she said but never made it lol. "It's fake! It's just printed. It looks like a pink rock with a damaged face!" (she was referring to 'Cookie' - the pink one below

[Jynx]

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@tyme wrote:

Guess what @Captain24 @Jynx ?

My sister came home with a HUGE bag of turtle chips yesterday. She got it from Costco.

The bag standing up reaches my thigh... that's how big it is!!!!

She bought the sweet corn flavour. I've never tried it.

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@tyme OH NO DON'T TELL ME THAT!!! I don't need a cosco membership, I don't NEED A COSTCO MEMBERSHIP, I DON'T NEED A COS-

🤣🤣

[Captain24]

I feel as though I have been trying @Jynx. But right now I feel silenced. I just don’t want to do the wrong thing again. I always fail at everything so yes, I’m scared.

I have some really big feelings tonight. Big bad ones but I feel like I don’t know what I can say. Just deal with it on my own.

I have read it and read it a few times but it’s like it’s taken away the confidence I was growing. 

You did say that you don’t expect us to be positive all the time but coming from someone that is struggling it’s hard to know. I’m sure I’m not the only one. I’m probably not the only one that thinks it was about me either. I’m sure others think it’s about them. I’m not speaking on anyone’s behalf though so please do take it as me talking out of turn. I actually wish I hadn’t have read it.